loophole_blues

i am back in the same loop

I need to vent about the person I have been seeing for the last ten weeks because I am doing it again. We were meant to grab dinner on Thursday but she cancelled at the last minute because she was tired. This is the third time this month. It reminded me of this other girl I saw years ago who kept me hanging on for months by just being a bit vague about everything. I am not even mad at the cancelled dinner. I am mad that I sat there feeling exactly how I felt five years ago. I am just waiting for a text back and it is so stupid. I know she likes me because she says it when we are together, but the second we are apart she just goes quiet. I thought I had learned my lesson about people who cant commit to plans but apparently not. I really like her tbh, but I keep thinking that I am just wasting my time waiting for something that is not coming. Sorry for the essay, I just needed to get this out.