numb_at_midnight

we went away for the weekend and it broke

So this happened last weekend. We went away together for two days and it was just really quiet. It was only two months of seeing each other but I thought things were going alright. We got to the hotel and he just kind of went into his own world. I kept trying to talk or plan something to do, but he just wanted to sit in the room. It felt like I was just there for him to not be alone. We didnt really have much to say to each other once we were stuck in that small space. Anyway, he kept saying he was tired and just needed a break from work. I get that, but it felt like he didnt want me there at all. It was just weirdly cold. We spent more time looking at our phones than talking. I think I finally realised that there is nothing here for me. I just feel a bit numb now. It is just over and I dont really want to message him again. It was supposed to be nice but it was just boring and empty. Sorry for the essay, just needed to get it out.